Read & Grow / Why Wandering Deepens Your Faith

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Christianity is in a transition, at least in North America. Some fear that the faith once delivered to the saints is being watered down with cheap grace, or corrupted by bad doctrine. Any given week you can find some preacher on the internet declaiming the way other churches are giving in to low standards, and abandoning cherished truth, all in an effort to be culturally relevant. But this is not the transition I see happening in the church.

The church is shedding a hard carapace of certainty and triumphalism for a much softer, more gentle incarnation. The Dusty Ones, by Dr. A. J. Swoboda (Website / Facebook / Twitter) is a compelling example of this.

A.J.’s book presents itself as a discussion about wandering in the life of faith. It tackles the metaphor of wandering wherever it occurs in scripture. Turns out, it occurs there a lot–and not always in a bad way.

Wait?! Wandering is good?

A.J. Swoboda, the author. He's also a professor, and the pastor of Theophilus, a church is South East Portland.
A.J. Swoboda, the author. He’s also a professor, and the pastor of Theophilus, a church is South East Portland.

If you grew up in a church similar to mine, this might surprise you. In the church of my childhood, wandering was always bad. Doubters wandered. Sinners wandered. Backsliders wandered. But people of faith? They did not wander.

Church life was structured to help us avoid wandering. There was a weekly routine that encouraged us to show up at the right time and the right place. Weekly worship services, prayer meeting, youth group, church social activities. You could prevent a whole lot of wandering just by sticking with the church’s activity calendar.

Then there was the training. The mysteries of faith were categorized with systematic theology and delivered in bite-sized nuggets. We were taught a list of fundamentals. From childhood, we memorized Scripture, verses carefully chosen to encourage right behavior and proper doctrine. Bible studies often featured fill-in-the-blank hand-outs that guided us like fences with livestock toward the right answer. You could prevent a lot of wandering by keeping questioning minds busy.

Even the church structure–hierarchical, region by region across the world, men in charge (mostly white men)–was built to forestall wandering. Everyone knew who was in charge. Everyone knew who to report to. The structure was built in such a way as to quickly move in and repair any rift when pastors or churches got off track. All of it carefully conceived to prevent wandering, or even thinking about wandering.

But The Dusty Ones suggests that wandering is not always bad. He says, “Wandering will be, at times, the very will of God.” Isn’t it interesting, for instance, that it’s not uncommon in scripture that when God saved people they are immediately delivered into the wilderness? Why would this be? Wandering in the wilderness is very often a necessary part of the process of growing in faith.

The wilderness reduced us.

The wilderness is where our needs become most visible and painful. Israel wouldn’t have survived the wilderness without God’s provision. When we are so profoundly aware of our needs, we also become profoundly aware of our need for God.

In the wilderness, we lose the crutches we have used to get by.

We lose certainty about the way forward. There are no church growth conferences about life in the wilderness. Life here does not align neatly with seven steps and three bullet points and strategies that are guaranteed to work if only you will work them.

In the wilderness, we lose the benefit of our reputation and credibility. After all, we’re wandering. Maybe we’re backsliding. Maybe we’re sinners. We’re certainly not successful.

Our American culture sees success as the primary marker of intelligence. “See what that person has accomplished! They must be smart!”

The church does the same. Success must mean the blessing of God. But in the wilderness, you don’t look successful. There’s a good chance people around you think you’re neither smart nor blessed. If your sense of value is based in any way on what others think of you, the wilderness will show you.

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In the wilderness, our trust is distilled. There are many reasons to love and trust God that have to do with what we gain. God does all these great things for us. Why wouldn’t we love and trust God? But in the wilderness, the days drag on. Provisions run thin. We worry that maybe we’re lost. We find ourselves with a choice. Will we continue to trust, even when we can’t see tangible benefits of blessing? Can we follow God for who God is rather than for what God does for us?

This, of course, is the painful transition the church is experiencing. We have long looked successful. We’ve been proud of our reputation. We’ve taught a kind of triumphal certainty and called it faith. A.J. quotes Flannery O’Conner, diagnosing the problem: “What people don’t realize is how much religion costs. They think faith is a big electric blanket, when of course it is the cross.”

The church is rediscovering the cross. Not as an abstract doctrine that can be used to explain everything away, but as a path, a way, a process, as experience. God’s intention, revealed in Ephesians 4, is that we would mature in the image of Christ. But we are starting to suspect that this doesn’t mean people will attend every church service and memorize our list of doctrines. We’re starting to see that this means something deeper, something slower. “The earliest Christians identified themselves as ‘the way,’ not ‘the arrived.'” comments Swoboda, and he’s right.

The Dusty Ones presents itself as a meditation on wandering in the life of faith, but it’s something larger than that. It’s also a pastoral reflection on a new way of being church, a way that isn’t about certainty and triumphalism, but about trust in the middle of the very real, often painful, and nearly always uncertain vicissitudes of life.

As A.J. tackles different wandering Bible characters, he often deviates into side discussions. He tackles pastors who are altogether too shiny and well-put together. He touches on the Eucharist and then later how we teach doctrine. He confronts what he rightly calls “the sin of nostalgia.” He reminds us that we always interpret Scripture in a community. He asks us to reconsider God’s judgement and wrath, then challenges us on the dehumanizing presence of technology in our lives. He pivots and talks about the healing necessity of a Sabbath practice.

At a surface level, it seems like the book itself wanders from its premise, and yet this is as it should be. A systematic theology of wandering would be ironic, and a gross misrepresentation of the truth. The issue at the heart of wandering is that there is no one way it happens, and when we find ourselves wandering it will impact vast swaths of our lives, even areas we might think unrelated.

Early in the book, Swoboda comments, “Those in my trade have become certainty machines, pumping out a steady stream of safe truths meeting the emerging market of consumer Christians who yearn for Cliches more than Christ.” This book is ample evidence that he is learning to walk a different path and is inviting his church and readers to the same.

Faith doesn’t mean constant certainty. Trust doesn’t mean knowing everything. Following Jesus doesn’t always happen in a straight line. Growing in Christ is much more like gardening than it is like putting together a puzzle or building something in a factory.

This is not scary news. It’s freeing, hopeful and encouraging, for when we wander, we do not wander alone. There is a whole heritage ahead of us, mothers and fathers in the faith who wandered before us. Jesus himself spent his time in the wilderness. If you find that your life of faith has found contemporary American Christianity an awkward fit, perhaps it’s because you’ve been wandering and the Church was ill-prepared to walk with you. I’m excited to see that changing.

Book Details

Title: The Dusty Ones: Why Wandering Deepens Your Faith
Author: Dr. A.J. Swoboda
Publisher: Baker Books, 2016
Find it: Spoke & Word Books / Barnes & Noble / Powell’s Books / iBooks

Who Should Read This Book?

  • Christians who have felt stifled by a religion that was all about steps, strategies, and one-size-fits-all solutions.
  • Anyone who feels like they are in a desert season of life.

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9 thoughts on “Read & Grow / Why Wandering Deepens Your Faith

  1. Love this! I’m inclined to wander and process slowly and adamantly avoid anything that tries to systematize what is primarily a relationship. But the challenge then is how to fit into any church, how to teach my children who God (and Jesus) is, how to be part of a community when I feel on the outside. This book sounds really interesting.

    1. I resonate with all those challenges.  That’s why I’m excited seeing pastors like A.J. helping form communities that handle all of this in a different, much more reflective and explorative way. Part of the reason some of us haven’t felt like we “fit in” at church is because most church experiences were designed with a certain outcome in mind. If the outcome changes (i.e. authentic spiritual growth vs. learning our system) then the way of being changes. I think that sort of community will feel more like a “fit” to a lot of people.  At least, that’s what I’m seeing in my own community.  

      Hey — thanks so much for reading and commenting!

      1. You bet! I enjoy reading your stuff! Now to keep figuring out how to help bring about these types of changes in my own church and community…

  2. Okay, I just added this book to my wish list. Thank you for taking the time to post this in the midst of your deadline.

  3. I certainly resonate with this article Marc. Sure seems that this is what is happening to Nancy and I and many of our friends.

  4. Thanks Marc. Look forward to reading it and finding meaning to the journey, whenever it takes me.

    1. Hey Chip, it’s always great to see you around here! I really think you’ll find A.J.’s book helpful. Glad to be on the journey with you!

  5. I absolutely love this take on the church today. It is so true how churches will forget truth in order be culturally relevant or to stay within a set of guidelines they have set themselves. I am not speaking down on any church at all, but I have discovered how different churches practice their faith even though they all identify themselves as Christian. Wandering has helped me really rely on God and grow my faith. Thank you for sharing your reflection on this book! I am tempted to read the full text!

    1. I highly recommend it. A.J. is a great writer, a deep thinker, and that’s backed up by a deep well of Biblical and theological scholarship. I keep copies of this one on my shelf to give away to people I’m working with as a pastor. It’s very helpful.

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